DETROIT, Mich. — The leader of the Detroit chapter of the Satanic Temple recently blogged about her medical abortion, which she carried out on Thanksgiving Day.
“I had a Thanksgiving abortion,” wrote Jex Blackmore on her blog “UnMother.” “This was good because I don’t care much for the holiday and was provided ample time off from life to recover.”
Blackmore began blogging in mid-November, stating that she didn’t believe it was the “right time” to have a child.
“The pro-creator of this little lump lives in the middle of the desert 1,700 miles away from here, and I am one million miles away in my own head,” she wrote. “On the verge of World War Three, the deification of Kim Davis and President Trump, this is not American soup for future family.”
The Satanic Temple leader shared about the various steps that she took to obtain the abortion, including visiting the abortion facility for an examination and pills that would end her child’s life. She expressed her objection to Michigan’s 42-hour waiting period and its requirement that women obtain information about fetal development and abortion.
Blackmore took her abortion pill on Thanksgiving Day and settled in to watch the 1988 science fiction horror film “They Live.” She later blogged about the intense pain, bleeding and nausea that she experienced for approximately seven hours until her deceased child fell out of her body.
“Something took hold of my abdomen and began to ring it out. I woke up covered in sweat and blurry-eyed. I vomited,” Blackmore recalled. “Then I was taken over by electric, resonant throbbing. I didn’t feel prepared. I expected waves of pain, but this was relentless.”
Hours later, she said she “felt something drop,” but didn’t wish to look.
“Everything became a sort of alternative reality where I was floating above myself. I transcended pain and became primal, and bloody. A relentless electric shock,” Blackmore wrote. “I vomited again. Then felt something drop out of me. I didn’t look.”
“I bled and I bled until I expelled one last something. I didn’t look and I didn’t care,” she said.
The Satanic Temple leader later told reporters that the experience was “horrible,” but did not express regret for the abortion.
Just as Blackmore took to the Internet to blog about her abortion, others have also shared their stories online—but to urge other mothers not to deprive their child of the gift of life. One of those women, only identified as Doreen from New York, shared her story on the site “Silent No More.” She recalled seeing her baby’s arm fall out of her body while taking a shower.
“I had taken my baby’s life—a human life. I just killed my baby. I was in terror. I stood in the shower for what seemed like hours contemplating what to do,” she recalled. “Not being able to pick up my baby’s arm I finally removed the cover to the drain and used it to push my baby’s arm down the drain.”
“I was so traumatized by what I had done. I was sickened by my choice and its harsh reality. I was sickened by what I was capable of. Most of all I was sickened that my baby was dead and that it was final. There was no escaping what I had done,” Doreen continued.
She urged other women not to rely on their own understanding, but to put their trust in God and recognize the child inside of them as a blessing.
“I didn’t know how precious God’s gift of life was and took it for granted, but I found out how precious life is and how much we need to protect and respect life,” Doreen wrote. “Go to God, for He is life and love. Swallow your shame and put aside your circumstance and just go. Don’t be afraid. Don’t choose. You don’t really understand what you’re choosing. You can’t possibly know. You can’t imagine the deep spiritual pain of abortion.”